?

Log in

...Just too much... - //.casting.a.circle.// [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
.soft.wolf.

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

...Just too much... [May. 31st, 2004|03:52 pm]
.soft.wolf.
[music |Seether - Broken]

Seether - Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I’m open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough

Cause I'm broken when I’m lonesome
And I dont feel right when you’re gone away

Cause I'm broken when I’m open
And I dont feel like I am strong enough

Cause I'm broken when I’m lonesome
And I dont feel light when you’re gone away


There's just too much. Too much. I'm going to loose it. I already have. And I don't know how to understand...to make sense of this *thing*. She's asking me to *not* trust my gut. I've done that so many times, and been so fucked over. It's right. I *know* it is. And I can't go through it again. I can't be ripped open and be left to bleed again...

I know the answer to this. Ground. Center. Meditate. Center. Ground. Go out in the trees. Listen to their stories. Take a deep breath of pure air in. Let the rain purify me. Listen to the sound of it hitting the roof, and me, and be blessed. Light a candle (if my mother would allow it) and stare that the beautiful flame. Light some incence (again, if my mother would allow it) and just submerse myself into it.

God, I wish that I lived on my own at times like this.

I suppose pouring all my energy into the earth and letting myself be submersed in it will have to do. That's all I can do. Take things as they come.

.Blessed Be.
linkReply

Comments:
[User Picture]From: readyfor_myfade
2004-06-01 12:36 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry... I don't know what else to say... but I'm so sorry... *cries* I'm sorry, I love you...
(Reply) (Thread)