||[Mar. 9th, 2004|07:25 pm]
|||||Loreena McKennitt - Marco Polo||]|
i think im gonna die. debates are gonna kill me. watch. just watch. my god i dont think well on my feet. and i shake like a leaf. and get nervous and dont eat. im gonna die cuz of them. x.x -sighs- stupid debates. stupid tests.
god why cant i just go to college next year. -grumbles and kicks things-
and i was doing ok today until something triggered me. i forget what it was now...but it was something..major. oh yes. the stupid fucked up library. isnt that fucking hillarious. flashes of things that happened there too. i dont know how many places we went. that bookstore and the coffee shop, the place upstairs, the post office, the 2 or 3 stores that he took me too, 2 other coffee shops, the back of his jeep....christ...i hate this
-laughs- arent i kinda fucked up. -shrugs- oh well....god i hate this. but at least our schools going to the playoffs for basketball...x.x that means i get out of debates at least for the next two days (hopefully)...-sighs- ugh.... -_- kill me. god im gonna die...-shrugs- not literally.
i think im already sorta dead inside. numbed to the pain of it all....because its life.
and you learn to live.